A Vortex Of Euphoria

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http://abbeyviewsalon.co.uk/tyman/4489 I loved that man more than anything, but I struggled with keeping up with his pace. He was a runaway train, and my entire marriage was about keeping up or being left behind. I now dreaded the very things I fell in love with – his passion, his impulsivity, his crazy spending, his generosity and even his lack of communication. Yep, that’s what I said– his lack of communication! Our love and lust ran so deep for one another that it’s all we apparently needed to sustain our relationship I thought; but of course, I was insanely wrong. Not until 3 years into our relationship did I recognize that he lacked normal back and forth conversation, and it was a devastating blow because I realized for the first time how different he was. I felt an uneasy feeling in my gut when I finally came to realize that all of our conversations were one sided about his fixations, interests and passions – it was never about mine. I hadn’t noticed sooner because I was willingly sucked into his vortex of euphoria – and that high was higher than anything I had ever experienced in my life. Life was grand, but it wasn’t reality by any means! We were living in a wonderland. When real life came screaming out into the world at 8 pounds, 11 ounces reality slapped me hard in the face, and now with a baby in our lives, I realized I had two boys to raise.