Avoidance

Dec 2

This collage is called AVOIDANCE! I have evolved so much as a human being in such a short period of time, that it’s causing me to have a very emotional evening as I reflect. When I think of the “ugly” moments of my past life, I realize I had much more outer beauty than inner. I just didn’t know any better, and I have forgiven myself for the war that existed in my own head throughout my marriage. I don’t revisit those moments but I’m being forced to as I write the final entries of my book and the pain is greater than the day I lost my husband. I am so tremendously sad for that girl who had no idea how to live and love – and I truly just want to give her a hug. I have no regrets – just traveling down memory lane is making me realize how much precious time was unnecessarily wasted. I can’t reverse time, but I know that in moving forward my pain will be someone else’s blessing, and that in turn is my blessing.

Please pray for my clarity – and that I can tell the hardest parts of my life story with compassion, dignity and respect. A month now and I have been avoiding. I made a promise to myself that this is the week it will be written!

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